Meliscia
Many were the ways in which I loved you, A variety of chores to which there was no end, yet the thank borne upon me were a thousand blessings of pain in which I reveled, romping merrily and unawares in the dim reflection of what we could have been. What man cannot have, he desires all the more. The weapon that you brandished bearing the name of Rejection served a role, not in severing that which I feel for you but instead feeding the beast that was once my affection. But it doesn't truly begin here, but rather at the rending of we two. The day which fate chose to divulge that our love was a but a farce. When a sad voice chose to divulge that the armor of your love, worn by me with such pride, shielding from the horrors of mistrust and envy, was false. That our many blessings were seen not as the "we" but as the "I". That was when your sword struck true, and without the protection of your love it brought forth my insecurities like the blood of a gutted man. But the wound does heal, and driven hard to control my weakness the armor of hope was donned. The hope that the "I" could again become the "We" propels me past my petty bitterness. Take away this hope and who knows what fate could befall me? Only time will tell.
Okay, I'll be the first to admit it, this poem is kinda screwy, but if this is the fist time you've thought that while going through these poems, than I'm doing better than usual. :-) The thing that sets this poem apart from my others is that it doesn't apply to one person, but two. Strange, yes but I am a strange person, I guess. I was getting over a rather harsh relationship and as people have a tendancy to do, I rebounded. The thought of being without either of these women scared me so much that I literally shut myself away from finding someone new. Lucky for me I had one hell of a friend to help me through the whole thing, and even from California she could make me laugh and smile at the worst of times. I suppose now that I think of it, I should post some of the poems that I wrote to/about/because of her, but I'm not really ready to share her :-) I guess I'll just dedicate this one to her for helping me through it.
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